Helping the community.

Wednesday 14th December, only 11 days to go until my FAVOURITE holiday of the year… CHRISTMAS *insert lyrics to a cheesy Christmas song*

Today was a day for me to fulfil my role of “giving back” to the community by volunteering to do something. It came to the end of the school day and the Sixth Form had to attend a Charity Fair with many different organisations needing our help and our ideas to help raise awareness and fundraise for their specific cause. As I strolled round the fair a few organisations caught my eye like Norwood, JWA and NCS which I signed up to on the spot; putting myself out there to build my CV to help me get a job.

I am writing to you now from my sofa, under a blanket, watching Love Actually looking at my glistening Christmas tree with admiration of my effort putting it up. Well friends, I will bid you adieu on a short but useful note… do everything you can in school to help you achieve your goal as it WILL help!

Good night chickies xxx

It’s been a while friends

Well, well, well. It has been a while since I took to the keyboard and sat down to write an entry for the day. In my last posts, I was writing as a 16 year old who had no social life and daddy issues. Now I feel an update is in order as a lot has changed.

Firstly, I finished my years of secondary school in the summer after a summer of dreaded GCSE exams to see whether I was capable of knowing ‘x+2=100’ or ‘whether Scrooge showed the theme of guilt or redemption toward the end of A Christmas Carol’. Well it turned out I am not an utter failure as I did pass each GCSE meaning I would not have to become a cashier at Poundland.

Another life change is my social group and my friends in school. Since going into the Sixth Form, it has come to my attention that some people will just never mature even if you try to convince yourself that they will. My own scenario shows a girl, who I thought to be a friend, slating my best friend (who is also her friend) to my face and then twisting it around to push the blame on me. I know, never heard something so bloody ridiculous. But matters got worse, this “friends” mother dropped me and my other friend home but whilst in the car, the mother asked me “So do you see A**** at all?” So I replied “No not recently” So the cheeky bitch of a mother goes to me “I’m not surprised really, A**** only sees you when she has nothing better to do” At this point I was absolutely taken aback. Anyway, I have one less fake friend now and one less psychotic mother in my life.

Let me end this blog entry by saying there will be many more good stories and entries as there are new people in my life such as my mum’s new partner and his daughter, who is like a sister to me. There will also be less ranting about my father as he finally cut ties with the “girlfriend” meaning I now see him when I am at his for the weekend. This time around I will be more committed and will have happier things to write about.

p.s. there will also be an inspirational quote on each of my entries to make both yours and my day better and uplifted.

Thank God It’s Friday!

Well, I’m back after a while and it feels good to be writing again. Let me take you through my last couple months very briefly. Firstly, last month I turned 16 and went to Barcelona with my friend and mum for a little mini break. Then came half term and I went to stay with my dad… well it was more like me on my own the whole five days as he was MIA with his girlfriend. Then we went back to school and I started to feel less shitty but obviously that didn’t last for long otherwise life would be boringly perfect. Everything with my friends is great however school just didn’t feel right and I don’t know why. Anyway, I don’t want to make this depressing so I will go onto now, the present and not dwell on the past.

I haven’t spoken to my dad in over a week as in my eyes he was being a dick. As I didn’t want to stay with my dad and his girlfriend every week I took a stand and said what I thought. However, he blamed everything on me and it ended up me wanting to punch him in the face. I mean how could it be my fault for wanting to spend a few hours with my dad?

Back to the now. Yesterday was parents evening and yade yada etc etc. Today is Friday and that means the WEEKEND!!! Thank god. Tonight means a night in with pizza, cookies and a date with my TV watching a feel-good rom com. Tomorrow I am going out on the job hunt as I need to get out into the world of reality and meet real people.

So good night and hasta lavista babies 🙂 Until tomorrow !!

I’ve Had A Shocking Week.

As you can see from my title of today’s blog, I have had a shocking week. I couldn’t believe it when it was announced that Nina Dobrev is leaving The Vampire Diaries *crying face*. After six amazing seasons, she quoted that she only wanted Elena’s storyline to be six seasons long, I mean what will The Vampire Diaries be without Nina aka Elena? Even though Ian Somerhalder will still be appearing on our screens, we will not see that Delena romance anymore.

So in the honour of Nina Dobrev, I started the whole TV series over again, and in the space of two weeks I am already on Season Three! We will miss you Nina<3

Three Days Gone.

Well ,it has felt like a long time since I have blogged, but really it has only been three nights…three boring days gone.

What happened on Tuesday? Well instead of going shopping, I sort of binge-watched the “Vampire Diaries” (AGAIN!!) on my iPad and since I restarted the series I am now on series three along with browsing and watching films whilst laid in bed all cozy.

Then there was Wednesday. I had an immense lay in until 10:10am, get in there, and when I eventually brought myself to getting up, I had a long, relaxing bubble bath and then I went to the optician for another regular check up…I literally have no social life:(

Now it is 8:00pm on Thursday April 2nd. I am staying at my dads over the Easter holidays with my two cats, whom I love, and my nan. I love coming to my dads as it is all very rural and there are lots of horses and sheep which I love to take photographs of in my spare time.

Not much has happened since Monday, but I still thought I would blog.

Until tomorrow fellow bloggers:)

A Dobrev Kinda Day.

well, Monday has been very eventful… NOT.

After carrying on my “Vamp-A-Thon” all through the night and all through the day, I have now come to the conclusion that I am slightly obsessed with Netflix and Nina Dobrev– – whom I now love and adore<3. Dobrev in The Vampire Diaries has changed my way of thinking about Vampires, Werewolves and Doppelgangers– – I have taken to literally researching the folklore and mythical legends about doppelgangers, trying to search for my own clone/body double.

The plot line of the TV series: Elena Gilbert, the girl who used to be human but is now a vampire who was tortured by her evil doppelganger Katherine who used to be in a relationship with Elena’s current boyfriend, Damon, and her ex-boyfriend, Stefan, who I forgot to mention are brothers and at the same time are Vampires who turned in 1864.

Anyways, tomorrow will be different as I am drawing myself out of my pigsty of a room and going… SHOPPING! I think the time has come to buy a new “MAC” lipstick ready for the raves that I will be attending this holiday– – not in reality though.

Sunday Slacker or Party Whacker

After many hours of watching back to back episodes of “The Vampire Diaries”, I have finally brought myself back to reality and started to socialise with my mother. All weekend I have been laying around in my pit of a bedroom fantasising about the beautiful Ian Somerhalder as a vampire– which is just to “die” for, literally- to DIE for.

Following my comeback to reality, I switched on my laptop and started to write this entry– which at first I couldn’t bring myself to do, but I had a “what the hell” like feeling so I just went ahead and did it.

It is now 7:52pm and I am thinking what to do later on this evening; another “vampire diaries” marathon or a scroll through the Netflix lists and picking an array of movies to watch with a bowl of salt popcorn to myself– which compared to all the other fifteen year olds getting drunk is the complete opposite.

So good night fellow bloggers and bring on next week!

This Is Why I Blog.

okay, this is my first ever time writing some sort of journal/diary to express my feelings that I feel in every day life. I thought it would help me get through some tough times to let go of things that have happened.

First things first, I am a teenager who struggles with her every day life– I have been through a pretty crappy couple of years, due to some personal issues. I had to go to a counsellor to express my feelings and the feeling that I wanted to die every day as this was not helping me in every day life. However, now I am much better and still have these thoughts but I do not go to the extent where I want to end it all. I think I never really processed the thought of “what would happen if I did die?” Daily I had the questions “who would miss me?why am I here? how will I do this?” going through my head… but the biggest question of all was “what’s the point of living?” I mean really, what is the point of living? But, we were put on this earth for a reason and I guess we are taken from the earth when we are ready to be taken away. At aged 5, I had an experience that no child should have to witness- their parents getting divorced in the room beneath them. The ceilings were so thin, I could hear everything as clear as a crystal, shouting, screaming, cursing and the zipping of a suitcase and the slamming of the door at the early hours of the morning; and ten years later, my mind is still so clear of the events that happened that night.

Since December 2013, I have drifted apart from my dad, had arguments with the people closest to me, lost my two best friends due to my time off school, tried to end it all, seen four counsellors, not left the house for months and lastly faced the people who made me start to feel like this– the bullies, the bullies who mocked me, tripped me up, hit me with bags and called me names. But now, I am stronger than them and do not stand or take any bullshit– from anyone.